Take it or leave it.
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I will give it to you straight, the way you want it, as you’ve never been one for sugarcoated or roundabout sentiments: you’re not going to get the answers to your deepest, most roundabout questions until your mid-30s. Yes, my dear, for the next 10 or so years you will continue to be in the dark – and it will get darker, more than you imagine – about many, many essential things.
That sounds as cheerful and optimistic as a Lars Von Trier film, I know. But better establish that fact early on so that you can prepare yourself for the things to come and worse still, the things that aren’t to come. So, listen. Those prayer times you have in the morning and your almost daily journal writing? Hand on to them like your life and sanity depend on them, because the truth is that they do. These will allow your stay in the dark to be a little less maddening. Praying and writing daily will help make you more comfortable – or at least, not as cuckoo – with not knowing and seeing beyond what’s directly in front of you,
The idea, really, is to TAKE THINGS A DAY AT A TIME. And that’s hell for someone like you who tends to live in the future, in her imagined life, and who can’t wait to be there already. What the next decade is going to teach you is how to be wherever you are. To truly inhabit your current state – and FOR A WHILE THAT STATE WILL BE OF BEING A LITTLE LOST. AND THAT’S FINE. BE LOST. TRY NOT TO ESCAPE THAT OR TO WISH OR DENY THAT YOU AREN’T.
Try not to rush out of that state into your ideal or be impatient with yourself. DON’T STRESS TOO MUCH ABOUT YOUR BEING “TOO SLOW” OR THAT THINGS AREN’T COMING TO YOU FAST ENOUGH. THEY’LL COME, IN THEIR OWN TIME, WHEN YOU’RE READY. You have your own pace – everyone has his own. Get to know yours and trust it. Slowly, it will lead you, a step at a time, towards where you want to be. ABOVE ALL, DEVELOP TRUST IN YOURSELF AND IN LIFE. KNOW THAT IT CANNOT FAIL YOU AND THAT YOU WILL NOT FAIL IT.
That’s life dear. See you in 15 years.
—Written by Tweet Sering
as the 15th day of october yearly passed, i turned 20, then 21, then 22. i had a lot going on in my mind back then. having no bf, i was scared of growing old alone. it was what i call my pre-quarter life crisis days. now im turning 25 and the woes i felt before are nothing compared to the emotional distress of my ripened qlc. it’s nt just the fear of growing old alone but the fear of choosing the path i’m destined to take. the questions about life, purpose and meaning bother me even in my sleep. what should i do? where should i go? is this what i want to do for the rest of my life? it scares me a lot.
they say the very least you can do with ur life is figure out what u hope for but it isn’t as easy as they make it sound.
(Source: quote-book)
